What a Difference a Year Makes

Wow. To say “blink and you’ll miss it” is an understatement.

It’s been a bit over a year, and to say my life has changed would be an understatement – and all for the better! My last year in bullets:

  • My divorce was finally finalized after nearly 2 years of back and forth with the X
  • Got down to my lowest weight ever…within 1 pound of having 100 pounds lost!
  • Met an amazing man, fell in love, got engaged…I’m getting married this month!
  • Put on about 20 pounds of “happy weight”…which I’m finally starting to see come back down
  • Changed my daughter’s day care, went through lots of up and downs with her (more on that later)
  • X got married to the chick he left me for. Which is fine, we are at a good place now and strive to put our daughter first
  • After our wedding (and honeymoon vacation – squee!!) we’ll start saving to buy a house together next year.

I mean, wow. This blog was created to be a daily log for me…of course I think the pressure of having a daily log just turned me off. Well, that plus like a month after I started it, my now ex-husband kinda walked out on me and my kid…and so any time I came back, for a long time after that, it was kind of painful. This blog has seen tiny snippets of pain, hope, more pain…long silences…and now, infinite joy! I really do want to work on filling in those gaps.

And the #1 reason it was created, of course, was to record the success of my losing weight! Somehow through this crazy storm, I DID manage to do that. And I want to keep it going…

Do I really think I have the time/dedication/passion to start this blog back up again? I don’t know. My next post might be another year from now…but let’s see what happens. 🙂

Today, life is good.

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Seventy

If you turn the way-back machine to 2011, I lost 60 pounds.

I did it by pretty much being an idiot…stupid restrictive eating and liquid diets and over-exercising. I became totally obsessed. It worked really well at the time…it was a time in my life where I needed something to be obsessed about for a while, and it was the first thing that ever had even “worked” for me.

I lost 60 pounds in 6 months…and promptly became pregnant!

And then I gained back 30 pounds…and then had the most beautiful baby on the planet…but then gained another 30 pounds.

One day reality hit me like a biotch in the face. That was the day I (again) saw a very scary number on the scale.

262.2

That was my starting weight in 2011 when I lost stupid weight. I had gone all the way back. To the 10th of a pound, I had gone back.

Since then, I’ve developed some really awesome habits on this latest weight loss journey. It wasn’t about being fast, it was about making changes that I knew I could live with all my life. I have basically cut out all sweets and sugary drinks, but I still have a soda every once in awhile, because you know what? I don’t want to give them up for all of time. I just have to learn to moderate…that is something I have to live with for all of time.

So, the weight came back off, slowly, but steadily and I wasn’t starving myself and developing obsessive habits this time. It took me a year verses 6 months this time, but I was happy with the progress…not to mention I had some giant personal hurdles that should have sent me back to the loving arms of food in a heartbeat. I persevered. But still, there was that magical number hanging over my head…60.

Now don’t misunderstand, I’ve lost over 60 pounds…I’ve had that beat since October or so. BUT, for some reason, I still wanted, yearned to reach that next decade of weight loss…so that I could…I don’t know…FOR REAL be passed where I had gone in 2011.

This morning, I saw a magical number on the scale…down to the 10th of a pound.

192.2

Today I’ve reached 70 pounds lost…exactly! I wish I had taken a picture of it, but I think I was too busy doing a little happy dance in my bathroom.

2011…bad habits…obsessive behavior…stupid marriage issues…turning to food (or wine) for coping…jeez, ALL of 2013… you all can bite me! I so own you.

This is my mean face...or an attempt at one. Do you feel intimidated yet?

This is my mean face…or an attempt at one. Do you feel intimidated yet?

Back.

Well, I am back so to speak. Please know there were very real, very hard, and very personal reasons for the hiatus. I won’t go in to them here (yet, maybe someday), but just know that through all the insanity that has been my life over the last 6 months, I somehow managed to keep myself on track as far as eating, exercising goes. This has to be one of my greatest personal achievements yet.

I am currently down 62 pounds. I am kissing at the fingertips of Onederland, and hopefully within the next week I’ll be there!

I’ve finished my Couch to 5k training, and now I’m working on getting faster. My lofty goal is to be able to run a 5k in 33:XX by the time I’m 33 (November 17th)…unfortunately a couple of flare up of my hip hurting has kept me from running a couple of weeks here and there, and my current fastest time for a 5k is 39:30. So…it’s not looking so great, but I’m still pushing as hard as I’m able to try and make it! Even 33:59 would do it! 😉

Right now I’m trying to run at least 3 times a week. I hit that PR time yesterday, so today is an off day. My runs are happening at the gym on the treadmill, since I’m using my lunch breaks to exercise at the moment. I’m hoping to be able to start running outside once it’s colder, but that would most likely mean me getting up and going before work…which involves words like “5am.” These aren’t words I usually associate with any kind of reality I’m involved with. 😉

So that is my update. It’s nothing huge or amazing, and a lot is left unsaid, but it is the first step to get me back in to the blogging world, which I think will be something handy as I continue my journey. I’m halfway to the finish line, still a long weigh to go (pun intended).

Ring Sizer

Today I achieved a NSV.

That’s a Non-Scale Victory, for the weight-loss club uninitiated. A victory that comes without it being tied to a number on a scale. I knew it was coming, and I was very excited…and today, it happened!

ring with sizer

I had to put a sizer on my wedding ring!

I know most ladies probably wouldn’t be too terribly happy with that, but to me it represents an awesome milestone!

When I started losing weight in 2011, I remember right around the time I hit 30 pounds lost, I had to put on a ring sizer because my wedding ring would just spin around my finger all day. I lost another 30 pounds after that, and that’s when I got pregnant. I gained 30 pounds with Reagan, and even so I still wore my ring with the sizer. It wasn’t until AFTER I had Rea and continued to gain weight that I eventually had to take it off. After weighing myself this morning I realized that I’m finally down to where I was my highest during pregnancy.

Now I just have to lose that next 30 to get to my pre-pregnancy weight…which includes a 1 as its first digit. It’s so ironic…I was focusing on losing weight to have a baby, and the VERY DAY I finally saw a 1 as the first digit on the scale is the same exact day that I also saw a positive pregnancy test later that afternoon. It’s such a surreal fact.

So, like I said, most ladies may find having to where a ring-sizer annoying (because, let’s face it, as far as fashion goes it IS kind of annoying), but I will where it with pride! 😀

Anyone else out there experience any NSVs lately?

Bet Your Butt Off

So who went on vacation and ended up LOSING two pounds? This girl! I was totally and completely surprised. I didn’t over-indulge and there was a bit of walking involved while I was gone, but I didn’t count calories religiously either. When I stepped on the scale this morning and saw a loss, to say I was surprised would be a definite understatement.

We had a blast on our first family vacation!

We had a blast on our first family vacation!

A few days before I left for vacation, I saw an interesting link from a Facebook page I follow. It was for something called DietBet. I took a brief look at the website, and even though I was intrigued, I didn’t spend much time looking at it. Then, right before I left, my best friend wrote me a YM (we instant message all day while we’re at work at our jobs…oh the joy of working in media!), and told me SHE had just signed up for a DietBet! So, I took another glance and found one that began yesterday (Monday). I figured, what better way to motivate myself post-vacation??

So, in short, a DietBet is a game where players pay to play. You’re betting that you can lose 4% of your body weight within the time period, which is 4 weeks. Right now from what I’ve read those two variables (4% and 4 weeks) are always the same. Anyone can host a DietBet, and anyone (who wants to pay up!) can play. Anyone who hits the 4% goal within the time period wins and splits the pot. So, that is definitely great motivation! So far I’ve been very impressed with the site and the program. They have a very clear weigh-in validation process, and the site is clean, easy to follow, and slightly snarky, which is a thumbs up in my book!

So, I submitted my weight yesterday afternoon, I have 4 weeks to lose 10.4 pounds to split the pot! Which, is the most important part – the pot in the game I’m playing is almost up to $30,000!!! I am shocked! Most of the games seem to get up around $1200 or maybe $9500…but this game great exponentially after I had entered! I guess the host is more popular than I thought! So, the motivation is DEFINITELY there.

So, if anyone is interested in jumping on (though I’m not sure I have any readers, lol!), you can still enter for 13 more days before the game is locked! You can find the game I’m in here.

So, that’s what happened over my extended weekend. The vacation was nice…it was a bit hectic with all the kids and of course extended family. They do things differently than we do of course, and Reagan definitely had troubles being out of her routine, especially on the last day or so. I’m glad to be back, but we’re already talking about going on vacation again later this year (with just the three of us!). The place we went is close by and reasonable…out in the “country” here in Texas but with plenty of modern convenience! 🙂 Here are a few more photos…

Meeting a Horse

Reagan got meet her first horse!

Blowing Bubbles

Exploring around the cabin and trying to figure out where bubbles come from…

Pickup Truck

We also took a ride in the back of Daddy’s pickup truck.

So many great memories! I can’t wait to go back!